Somehow it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve posted here! Looking back, nothing earth shattering has happened during this time, but life with an 11 month old is busy! And you know me, I have found plenty of little projects (birthday invitations, baby gifts, and crocheting) fall recipes to try, and a family vacation to Florida.
I also had 3 days of photo shoots for a couple of magazine stories I’m working on. I don’t mention my writing and producing much here, but I’m settling into being a part-time freelancer and loving it! The most recent story I worked on was for Do It Yourself magazine. I’ll try to share a peek at it when it comes on in January. I’m not always good at talking about myself, especially my work, but I was really proud of how this story turned out! It was a guide to wood staining. I had not experience when I started working on it 3 months ago, and now I can say with confidence that I know enough to tackle a project on my own. I think that’s one of my favorite things about being a journalist. You get to be an expert at a lot of random things. And you get to ask questions! Just ask Adam. Once I get started with questions, you can’t stop me! He jokes that I go into journalist mode, but I can’t help it. I’ve always been curious. And the fact that I can ask questions and get paid for it is the best!
I think about blogging a lot, but obviously I haven’t actually sat down and done much with it. I have so many hopes and dreams for this little online portal. I want to connect with women, inspire, encourage, dream, and share life. It sounds rather idealistic, but I see so many other women doing it, I want to be part of it!
I think one reason I’ve hesitated to really dive into the blog is that because I write an edit professionally I see how much work goes into crafting a post and if I don’t think I have time to do it perfectly I don’t do it at all. With this post, I am giving myself permission to change that.
Instead of agonizing over what to write about and how I say something, I’m just going to write.
It doesn’t matter if it’s not about marriage, being a mom, a book I’m reading, or a quick and easy decorating project.
I feel the need to write for me. To move my fingers over the keys and get the words out. Even if they aren’t edited and don’t always make sense or follow a logical thought pattern.
There are no hard and fast rules when it comes to blogging. Sure there are plenty of ways to make this blog successful, and reader friendly, and pinterest worthy, but I’m not interested in that right now. I’m turning off the critic and just writing. That means there might be posts with no pictures and I’m OK with that. It means I might lose readers, but let’s be honest, I haven’t blogged consistently for the last few months, so losing readers is the least of my worries.
When Emerson was born a year ago, (can you believe he’s almost 1!) I said the blog wasn’t going to become a mommy blog. Now I realize that that’s my life and there’s nothing wrong with that. Being a mom isn’t my sole identity, I am obviously still a wife and friend and writer, but as the year has progressed it only makes sense that I want to write about being a mom. What I’m learning, what I’d do differently, what I wish I’d known, what I wouldn’t change for the world.
I want to be done comparing my posts to other bloggers who seem to have better ideas, lives and homes and families that are more put together, and pictures that are prettier than mine.
Can I be more of a lifestyle blogger? Am I willing to put my life out for others to see? To be vulnerable and real and unedited? I’m not sure, but I want to try.
I don’t know what the next few months will look like around here, but I hope you’ll stick around! Even if I only post pictures from Emerson’s first birthday party and random projects around the house and things I find inspiring. My goal is to stop thinking and start writing. Even if it’s only for 10 minutes. I have to start somewhere!