Tuesday we celebrated Emerson's first birthday! Adam said I can't call him a baby anymore, but I think he'll be my baby at least until he starts walking!
Yes, the year flew by like everyone said, but to be honest, there were days and weeks (especially during the third and fourth months) when I wished the days away and thought we'd never get through the phase of spitting up all the time, sleepless nights, and napless days. I can't say that I feel rested after this year, but knock on wood, we are through the worst of the exhaustion. Either that, or we've just learned to function on less sleep!
Anytime we celebrate a birthday or anniversary, one of my favorite things to do is to look back at the year and talk about my favorite memories. So of course, Adam and I have spent a lot of time the last couple days reflecting on how our lives have changed.
I wonder what we used to do with all our free time! One thing's for sure, we got a lot more projects done around the house. At this point, I have tried to stop adding things to my "list". It's so long as it is. It helps that I don't really have time to be on Pinterest anymore! I have had a paint swatch taped to the back door for at least 4 months and still haven't bought the paint. Who knows when it will be painted. I picked a bold yellow and promise to share pictures when it ever is finished!
Even though I miss some of the freedom of our kid-free days, I can't imagine not waking up every day to our sweet little boy. It doesn't matter if it's 5:30 am and the sun won't rise for another 2 hours, he's ready to go and excited for the day. Adam and I alternate mornings of who gets up with him, but I can't complain too much on the days that are mine. We have our little routine. I nurse him (yesterday was the last day for that! He is now officially weaned! That may be my favorite milestone. I'm am so grateful I was able to nurse him for the entire year, but I was ready to be finished!) and then he plays while I made coffee and breakfast. We usually listen to NPR while we eat and then climb upstairs to wake up dad. He always gets a big smile on his face when I open the door and let him start climbing! I usually shower while the boys hang out and then we play some more before it's time for Emerson's morning nap. It probably took 8 months for us to get into this routine, but I love it!
One of my favorite parts of our routine is having dedicated time every morning for Bible study. While Emerson takes his nap, I drink my second cup of coffee and spend at least 10 minutes reading my Bible, doing a study, praying, and journaling. I think this last year I have had the most consistent quiet times I’ve ever had. I am so thankful to be able to set aside this time and can see how God is blessing me through it!
I think it took me at least 6 months to adjust to the idea that I wasn't going back to work full time. It was such a hard decision and I definitely mourned not going back to a job I loved, but now that it's been a year since I worked full time in an office, I can honestly say it was one of the best decisions I ever made. I really can't imagine going to work every day. I am so thankful that financially I didn't have to go back to work and I love that I still am able to write, edit, and produce part time. I probably average 15 hours of work a week and that's perfect for now. We have someone come to our house to watch Emerson and it's the perfect solution for us. Maybe when Emerson's older we'll look into taking him somewhere and maybe it will all change when we have more kids, but for now, it's just right.
Who knows what the next year will bring!